Diet Coke

My beverage of choice in trying to make myself study. As you see, its not going well. Last time I posted, it was 12 days until my exam. Now its 3. I wish I could say that if I went back, to that 12 day mark, I would have spent more time studying, and less time procrastinating...but I'd probably do it the same all over. I'm tired of studying. My mind is tired of pushing things into it, I never wanted to have in there. Troy has left me alone tonight, and I'm trying my darnedest to study, but I only managed to get a combined 25 minutes of it, and my mind won't take it. I think I'll go back in a few minutes.

It smelt like spring outside this morning. I was at the bank machine putting in a cheq, and I caught a whiff of it, and I sort of 1/2 way got out of my car. I must have looked like a lunatic. I don't care...what a wondrous smell. What do you think causes that? The theory I've come up with is this.

You know in life when times are tough? Nothing ever seems to go your way, you feel like you're at the end of your self. And then all of the sudden you think, "I'm not going to live like this anymore." And life changes, your perspective changes, and you start growing, and things all of the sudden change for you, even if the circumstances don't change, you do...and that's where the growth comes from.

I think that's what happens in creation. In the winter it all dies, and then when the spring peeks its head around the corner (this is quite a long process in Alberta, in fact I can never ever remember a true season of spring in the 8 years I've been here) the plants, and the trees, decide they're not going to be dead anymore...they're going to change things. And of course, God commands them to do this, and the obey as creation does...but they decide they won't live dead anymore. Well I think the smell of spring is that decision, to start living again. I see little teeny tiny buds on our big tree in front of the house. That makes me happy. I love the smell of spring.

Speaking of that, I've decided the garden has to go. I've drawn up a plan for the yard...and when we're back from Europe, I'm (and by "I'm" I mean me, and Troy, and anyone else we can recruit) going to dig up the front yard, and uproot all the perennials...which is sort of sad, but necessary. Then we're going to lay sod, and leave some area's to plant some pretty potting plants each year. I think it will be easier to maintain, and enjoy. Its too buggy out there with that mammoth forest of plants...despite its potential.

Well I can't think of anything else to write....I suppose this is coming to an end. I better get back to trying to study. If you think of me, my exam is on Monday at 1:30pm Mountain time.

S